About:
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine. I will tell you a story, That's never been told. I will tell you a secret, Five lifetimes old.
My life has been a prison, A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy. ~OTEP
Born the twenty-ninth of March, nineteen hundred eighty.
German, Irish and Cherokee blood run through these veins.
"God is dead and no one cares. If there is a Hell, I'll see you there."
Introverted and Bitter.
If you're offended easily, you will detest me.
I've abandoned my faith in humans.
Your words mean nothing, I won't believe you.
Most people lie & that's the truth.
I'll most likely find you boring... don't be predictable.
I don't go out as much as I use to because the whole music scene is nothing but a bunch of drama.
To tell you the truth, I'm complicated.
I'm sick of being used.
I am sick of being the one who is put down & made to look the fool.
"My confession. Because I'm diluted & perfectly flawed. I shall live by passion & not by law & I'm insecure, I need aggression to feed the spiders of perception." ~OTEP
I'll be the one to look you straight in the face, stare right through you and never see a damn thing. I'll be the one who lets go before I ever come close to having a chance to hold on. I live to please none other than myself; however I always seem to fall short of my own expectations. I'm blunt, open, straight forward, and optimistically cynical. I can be absentminded, accident-prone, and somewhat clumsy. I bore myself very easily and change my mind every 6 seconds. I find myself able to be selflessly detached way too easily and it is usually taken the wrong way. I'm too introverted for most people the majority of the time. And greatly lack the art of tact. I'm not a particularly social person and for the most part I'm a pretty withdrawn. Please don’t take it personally, I just find myself at a loss for conversation a lot of the time and my mind elsewhere from my physical body. I’m the kind of person who feels as if they need tons of space and an over abundance of free reign. I’m fairly stubborn, but enjoy and respect any challenge brought upon me. I dislike flattery and find myself unable to take a compliment well. I've been told many times I come off as a 'very unapproachable person'. I love and hate, sometimes with an equal fury towards the same target, and can be quite difficult to get close to. I run as if I’m constantly frightened - So strange is it that I am never afraid. I allow no one "close", but hold a constant need to feel "secure". I walk in Contradiction of myself every other day, just as every other human does.
As heartless and selfish as I may sound, I'm not. Id be the first person to give what ever I could to the last person you'd ever think. I am accepting and forgiving, more so than I should be, at times. I never hold a grudge, and no, I’m not exaggerating in the least bit there. I have a very hard time understanding spite and the need for vengeance. I've learned to take much in stride and laugh off the more than I ever should have. One could stab me in the back four times in a row, and another would ask 'Haven’t you learned?" yet my only response could be is that my personality is a result of none other than myself and my constant need to push my emotional limit. I hide nothing, but hold in everything.
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